Pumpkins Journey

Weekly Weigh-in

Last Week: 164.4

This Week: 161.6!

Lost 2.8lbs!!!

I think I’m pretty sure thats what the scale said, I’m pretty tired this morning so yeah. But I know it said 161.__ something haha

I’m so happy to have lost this week!!

Its a very good reinforcement that what I’m doing is working.

Everyday this past week, except sunday and monday, I’ve written down everything that I’ve eaten into my phone.

I’ve tried this before with notebooks and stuff but I don’t always have a notebook handy so my phone is a great choice with just a simple Note app.

I’ve been inputting what I’ve eaten into myfitnesspal.com so I have an idea how many calories I’ve been eating.

I feel like my eating has been pretty good this week. Not super healthy but its better and its less. I think I’ve been realizing that I don’t need to eat as much as I have been. 

I’ve noticed that despite my claims I DO eat when I’m bored/stressed. Also I noticed that I have an urge to be eating a lot when i’m driving for work, so I was probably eating a ton of calories in my car just because I was in my car. 

So yes writing down what you eat actually helps, and if you do it right as/after you’ve eaten its so much easier. I also take photos sometimes if I don’t want to write down everything that was in  my meal, so instead of writing salad with 1 cup lettuce, 1/4 c tomatoes, 1/2 c cucumbers, 1/4 of avocado, 1/8 c crab meat, 1 tbsp olive oil, 2 tbsp red wine vinegar. I’ll just write Salad see pic. so much faster :) in the photos I can see whats in the salad and then I can remember how much of what i used. 

Such an awesome start to the day!

Some days I’m just torn.

I want to just be comfortable with my body, I don’t need to be a victoria’s secret model or anything, just me.

At the same time I DO want to lose weight and get healthy.

But I’m lazy. I’m not sure if I’ll workout before work. I’m very tired I went to bed at 6:30am this morning and woke up at 10. I have to go to work in two hours and I can barely get off the couch where I was napping. 

Oh well maybe today will be a rest day and I’ll hit it hard tomorrow.

Theres no shame in that right?

Day 6. Done

Okay so I just did Day 6 of the 30 Day shred, 5 days late, today should have been Day 11 level 2.

Oh well.

I noticed that I really didn’t enjoy it as much, like by a lot. I didn’t really want to do it at all. I hope that after doing it everyday again it’ll get better.

I also noticed my back started hurting a few times which makes it very uncomfortable to do some of the moves, especially the side lungs, not good.

So I think I’m going to chill until I go to work. 

Hatin

Ok so I just feel like bitching a bit so bear with me.

I HATE where I live. I don’t like the city but what I’m really talking about is the apartment I live in. When I moved back up here to live with my boyfriend it was with the understanding that we would try and get our own place together, alone. And I was SUPER excited about that.

So I move up here in January with no where to live but my boyfriends best friend said we could live with him and his mom, they love me so no biggie. 

It was ok because I was under the impression it would be temporary. Flash foward  4 months and I am still living here. In a tiny two bedroom apartment with four people. 

I feel no sense of comfort here, even when I have the house to myself. I hate feeling uncomfortable in the place I’m supposed to call home. I hate having all my things in boxes and not being able to access 85% of it and I hate using other peoples things. 

I’ve been trying to do a bit of cooking lately, posts to come, and I’ve had to use our friends mom’s kitchen equipment which is, how do I say..cheap? It’s not very good quality stuff, the knifes barely cut cucumbers. 

Plus the house is cluttered! My boyfriends friends mom is a pack rat. Mess and clutter bothers me so again its just more stressed added onto an already stressful situation. 

I just want to feel comfortable and I can’t. My boyfriend doesn’t love the situation but its okay for him. And at this point theres no point in finding a place of our own because we are hoping to move in late May/june. Not sure where too yet but I don’t want to live here anymore I just can’t deal with it. 

I am extremely grateful that we are allowed to live here and that we have a place to live at all, that’s a privilege many don’t have. 

Ok. I lied. Tomorrow will be Day 6.

What started out as a great day turned awful very quickly..

I need to know a few things so I’m going to just write it down for me.

My BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate), which is the number of calories I burn simply by staying alive is 1574.85. 

So lets round down to be safe.

1,574 so technically if I ate around 1,500 calories a day I would maintain my weight, correct?

And in order to lose 1lb of fat I’d have to burn 3,500 calories. So if I wanted to lose a pound a week I’d have to burn 3,500 calories in that week or roughly 700 calories a day.

Now thats a deficit of 700 a day, not just burning that many. 

So I think I definitely need to lower my calorie intake, and definitely  not eat like yesterday( O.O ) and up the calorie burning.

Now I have to go do math. dang it.

Okay

Okay I think I’ve decided something, like how I did that? thinking is awesome lol

I don’t want to be harsh to myself. I don’t want to get all upset if I miss a day, or a few of exercise because you know what? Life happens! 

Sunday my boyfriend got into a car accident and things have just been a bit toppsy turvy since then. Things are finally getting back to normal now and you know what I’ve missed 4 days of exercise.

Last night I found myself feeling really bad about that (and the last two days as well)  which I think helped me not do any exercise because I was focusing on what a failure i was. 

My original plan was do to multiple sessions of the 30 day shred until I was caught up but that feels really daunting and I don’t want to. Its not a workout meant to be done for 2 hours thats why its so intense.

I hate that I’m going to have to push my schedule to be done back but like i said life happens and I can’t beat myself up just because I missed a few days its not the end of the world.

Also I was feeling bad last night because of a lot of things:

• I most likely carb overloaded yesterday so probably ingested high calories- no fun
• I’m gaining weight like crazy and i’m terrified to get any higher
• I’m broke. Looking at my bank accounts last night really didn’t help anything at all. 

So I’m going to do Day 6 of 30DS later on tonight plus play with my wii balance board finally! 

Which I must say can be an amazing workout if done honestly-don’t just shake the remote when you should be running!

So heres to getting back on track and hopefully seeing a smaller number come sunday!

I need help!!

Ok I really need someones opinion!

I haven’t done the 30 day shred today, let alone twice like i was planning but I did burn about 400(+) calories bicyling today

should i count that and just move onto day 8 tomorrow? or still try to do day 6/7 today?? or maybe day 6 today and then days 7/8 tomorrow???

Help please!!

Missed Day 6.

Ok so I did not do Day 6 of the 30 Day Shred yesterday but with good reasons.

Firstly I had to go to work at 12 after getting home from work around 12:30 the night before so I chose to sleep in with the intention of doing it when I got home from work, probably around 7ish. 

Then at 6 my boyfriend calls me to say he was in a car accident. Thank goodness he was ok but his car has to get repaired and he needed me to come pick him up, about 3 hours away so I ended up getting there about 9:30 and we stopped at his cousins place were we ended up spending the night because it was so late. 

So there was no working out last night so I’ve decided I will do two sessions tonight so that will make up for it.

Also I’ve resolved to work much harder at my eating this week. I need to lose weight. and if I do well with my eating and exercising and still gain weight I’m calling a doctor. 

I’ll be real with you guys for a minute. My girlie time, you know the annoying one we get each month?, yea that one. It’s been pretty non existent for the past few months. 

I have no idea whats happening though I’m pretty sure I’m not pregnant, given that numerous tests have been negative. 

So what is happening with my body I have no idea.

Also I’d like to try to go a whole month with no sweets. Starting tomorrow :D

Hope I can do it!

Weekly Weigh-in

Last week: 161.4

This week: 164.4

Gained 3lbs!!!!

In one week with exercise WTF?!?!?

I have no idea whats happening, I know i’m not eating very well but not enough to gain 3lbs in one week plus the past few weeks have been constant gain I have no idea whats going on. I want to speak to a doctor about it but since I just moved here i don’t have a doctor in the area and can’t get an appointment until early May.

I’m definitely going to work on my eating this week. Maybe I can up my exercising I just hope that helps. 

Any suggestions would be great

Day 5. Done and Done.

Alright I finished Day 5 of the 30 day shred today!!

I am sweating buckets it is not pretty but damn it feels good!!

My push ups are getting better by the day!!

My quads feel soo sore, they have been sore non stop since I started its difficult to bend down to pick things up, which I have to do at work sometimes. 

The side lunges are getting harder, in fact today my back hurt while I was doing them which didn’t feel right at all. And last night at work my lower back was bothering me.

I need to get a new sports bra, I’ve had this one for quite sometime and since my breasts have gotten a little smaller its not doing so good. Its rubbing during the exercises which is chafing my skin and its pulling at my shoulders which just hurts.

So on my next day off I’m going to try and find a good one, any suggestions? My cup size is a C I think lol  they keep changing.

I am a delivery driver at a pizza place, thats my job for now. I recently moved back to my home state of maryland to live with my boyfriend while he finishes up school, graduates in about a month!! I’m so happy for him, not loving my job but hey it pays pretty good so that works. 

But since I’m constantly in my car, eating at work is difficult so I’ve general just run to Mcdonalds to get stuff, one of the fastest things I can get, and for me time is money.

I used to generally get like a mcdouble, a small fry and those chicken popper things, it would cost about $4.50 and I’d eat it throughout the night, generally I work from 4-11/12 

Yesterday I decided to be a bit healthier and get a salad with grilled chicken…$5.60 before taxes for 1 salad! I could get like 5 burgers for that! 

The salad was delicious, i’ll give them that but seriously?? Its so expensive compared to other menu items. I was quite upset but I bought it and I ate it. I’ll be honest I also broke down and got a small fry. I can’t help it I love the fries hahaha. 

anyway i’ve got to get something to eat then go to work!

I have no self control. Now I need sleep and lots of it.